[ it's... difficult, because tsuru made a lot of promises about surviving and seeing people again, but this is no longer really in his hands. so while he can do his best to fulfill those promises, he can't predict what someone else might do.
he can't say that he expected this response, though, especially when he knows kara was angry with him for a good chunk of their time here. if there is one thing that he regrets the most about dying so early, it's that he lost even more time to spend with this kara.
he's not his kara, but... he's still his. even if they go their separate ways. ]
I'll do my best. It really was the best course of action, considering the situation though. And it was better me than anyone else who was with us.
Don't say that like you're expendable. You'd make Lili mad if she heard you.
[ and kara... somehow it's harder to put into words, when it comes to what he feels. so it won't be a surprise that he struggles with an answer, beyond the reflexive chiding. ]
And whoever you were trying to protect...
[ kara has a feeling it was the date swords. all of them, or one, it doesn't matter. he knows how tsuru tries to take care of them, even if neither of them ever openly acknowledge it. ]
...I doubt they'll want to hear it, either.
[ and they'll try their hardest to find a way to bring him back. but even if tsurumaru does break a third time, he was never expendable. not to them. ]
[ it's some kind of cruel joke, perhaps, to hear that from kara of all people.
tsuru doesn't really regret waiting, especially if the news upset him... with everything else going on in the game, it was better that this wasn't one more thing weighing kara down.
but maybe they could have spent the short time they had together a little differently, if he had. ]
... they likely would not, no. [ ... ] It may have been a somewhat selfish move on my part.
[ ...that's as good as confirmation, and after a moment, kara sighs. ]
It went after us, didn't it. And you took whatever blow was meant for us.
[ it isn't that hard to put together, now that he's gotten this much from tsuru. it's... exactly something that kara would expect from him, even if he doesn't like it. ]
he nods his head. it's still more than he wanted to admit, but at this late stage, there really is no point in dragging it out much longer.
there's a chance they may never see each other again, and lili knows the truth because of village shenanigans, so kara might eventually learn about it from her if it becomes apparent that tsuru isn't around anymore. it's better if it comes from him directly. ]
But I know that we wouldn't leave you like that to break, unless there really was no other way. We'd find a way to fix it. So they have to find one, too.
[ tsuru is pretty sure kara loves the date enough that he'd still worked with them, even if they are from a different citadel. even with the differences, these two are proof that there are constants that don't change.
but he'll be nice and not tease him with that. ]
... right. [ ... ] If-- when things work out, I'll send a message to you as soon as I'm able that's convenient for you. So that you'll know.
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he can't say that he expected this response, though, especially when he knows kara was angry with him for a good chunk of their time here. if there is one thing that he regrets the most about dying so early, it's that he lost even more time to spend with this kara.
he's not his kara, but... he's still his. even if they go their separate ways. ]
I'll do my best. It really was the best course of action, considering the situation though. And it was better me than anyone else who was with us.
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[ and kara... somehow it's harder to put into words, when it comes to what he feels. so it won't be a surprise that he struggles with an answer, beyond the reflexive chiding. ]
And whoever you were trying to protect...
[ kara has a feeling it was the date swords. all of them, or one, it doesn't matter. he knows how tsuru tries to take care of them, even if neither of them ever openly acknowledge it. ]
...I doubt they'll want to hear it, either.
[ and they'll try their hardest to find a way to bring him back. but even if tsurumaru does break a third time, he was never expendable. not to them. ]
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tsuru doesn't really regret waiting, especially if the news upset him... with everything else going on in the game, it was better that this wasn't one more thing weighing kara down.
but maybe they could have spent the short time they had together a little differently, if he had. ]
... they likely would not, no. [ ... ] It may have been a somewhat selfish move on my part.
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It went after us, didn't it. And you took whatever blow was meant for us.
[ it isn't that hard to put together, now that he's gotten this much from tsuru. it's... exactly something that kara would expect from him, even if he doesn't like it. ]
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he nods his head. it's still more than he wanted to admit, but at this late stage, there really is no point in dragging it out much longer.
there's a chance they may never see each other again, and lili knows the truth because of village shenanigans, so kara might eventually learn about it from her if it becomes apparent that tsuru isn't around anymore. it's better if it comes from him directly. ]
That's correct.
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[ he would never allow ookurikara to be taken like that. ]
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... mm! We have to believe in our comrades.
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[ different citadels, and all. ]
But I know that we wouldn't leave you like that to break, unless there really was no other way. We'd find a way to fix it. So they have to find one, too.
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but he'll be nice and not tease him with that. ]
... right. [ ... ] If-- when things work out, I'll send a message to you as soon as I'm able that's convenient for you. So that you'll know.
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[ he's regressed since subd lmao. ]
...I'll be waiting for it, though.
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that gives him a pause, and he'll nod. ]
I would like to spend more time together, when we're able to.
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[ sometimes you look at the world in black and white and refuse to see shades of gray because the alternative simply isn't acceptable. ]