Yes, yes, I'll just have to keep trying until it works!
[ the thing is, being in places like this... it's harder at times to believe in the bigger dreams, because it feels more painful to think about not getting them.
so smaller ones, but ones that are still enough to keep you going, are needed. ]
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[ if there's only tonight, there are better places to be. ]
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[ she really does want to spend as much time as she can with the people she loves. ]
I simply don't want to cry all over everyone.
[ she says, but she is ready to cry all over tsurumaru. ]
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[ so that she can spend as much time with the others as she can.
he'll press closer to her. ]
For as long as it takes.
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Thank you for being here, Tsurumaru-san.
[ she says that like she thinks she might break if he weren't here. ]
Thank you for staying with me.
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[ he will hold her back, letting his head rest against hers. ]
Where else would I be?
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[ there isn't any real conviction to her words. ]
After tomorrow...
[ she also won't finish that thought. ]
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After tomorrow?
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It will be more harrowing to my heart.
[ dimitri is the worst blow, but once her bad luck starts rolling, it never seems to stop. ]
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[ if he says it enough times, it can continue to be true. ]
I made a promise.
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it's not something they can both promise here. she knows that vividly, especially tonight, but she still lifts her pinky.
she wants to believe in something tonight even if it's foolish. ]
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A promise.
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her expression shifts and softens to something less sullen and heartbroken. ]
I'll hold onto this promise for as long as I can.
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[ for as long as he can.
he can hope that will be a very long time. ]
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very softly, almost too soft: ]
I'm very tired.
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[ eight weeks, it said. ]
And once it is, what shall we do?
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[ she rests her forehead against him as she thinks. ]
I don't know. I want to do good. I want to make things better. I want us to be free.
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[ whatever it is, to be good and to change things for the better, when they are aware that this is happening. ]
We have life in front of us.
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[ she has endured so much loss, but she is still only a fraction away from clinging to tsurumaru right now. ]
We need to make the best of it. Find all the surprises you could want.
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[ what a nice though. sometimes dreams can be very simple. ]
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[ it's future thoughts that make her want to be a little less miserable.
which is funny because she's someone who hasn't thought much of her future past a certain point. ]
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[ the thing is, being in places like this... it's harder at times to believe in the bigger dreams, because it feels more painful to think about not getting them.
so smaller ones, but ones that are still enough to keep you going, are needed. ]
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[ small dreams can be big dreams. all it takes is a little hope to make it grow.
she may not love everything he does, but she loves him. she doesn't think that will change. she hopes it never does. ]
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[ even if it's fine if she doesn't.
he's happy as long as they still have time. ]
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[ as long as they still have time, it can happen. ]