I don't usually get too attached to people. I have lived a long time, and unlike some other swords, I don't have strong feelings towards one particular master. I've been passed through too many hands for that.
[ he can't say he has ever really had a place he could call home. ]
But every now and then, someone will pop up, and I think that... yes. This is probably what people mean when they talk about love.
[ There's something very sad about that. Swords aren't human. She knows that they view things differently just by virtue of being what they are. She can't say if she'll ever fully understand, but that doesn't mean she can't try. ]
That's Ookurikara-san for you. Do you feel like you failed him by dying?
[ It's always hardest disappointing someone you love. ]
[ it's more than ookurikara, really, but he's his closest connection to home. in his citadel, tonbokiri and yasusada aren't even there, so he doesn't have the same camaraderie with them as humans that he does with ookurikara. ]
He may have an easier time if I were there.
[ tsuru is, at least, good at smoothing things over. ]
[ although tsuru already noticed that kara was being more argumentative than usual even before that. it might be that it seems like there are more people he doesn't get along with here than there was at the village.
but it's hard to know for sure when all you're doing is watching. ]
Somehow, it's more cruel that you're allowed to fight back.
... it makes sense, considering what this place wants from us. If you simply killed whoever was voted for, everyone will eventually move on without blaming the person who had to do it.
But if there is a chance they can fight back? It changes things. You may suddenly resent whoever walks away, because you know they might not have. [ ... ] It really did choose the rules carefully.
The people doing the execution aren't volunteers. They may not have even voted for the person up there. There really isn't anything just about just switching from one innocent life to another.
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Talking, was it? [ he gently taps against the hilt of his sword. ] I'm not actually sure if I have the right to be upset at this point.
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Why wouldn't you have the right to be? You care about Ookurikara-san. That gives you as much right as anyone else.
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[ since the village, if he's honest, but he won't be. ]
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Whatever you have or haven't done, that doesn't mean you can't care. Having regrets doesn't mean you have to stop. Sometimes, it means the opposite.
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[ he... wonders how to say this. ]
I don't usually get too attached to people. I have lived a long time, and unlike some other swords, I don't have strong feelings towards one particular master. I've been passed through too many hands for that.
[ he can't say he has ever really had a place he could call home. ]
But every now and then, someone will pop up, and I think that... yes. This is probably what people mean when they talk about love.
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That's Ookurikara-san for you. Do you feel like you failed him by dying?
[ It's always hardest disappointing someone you love. ]
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He may have an easier time if I were there.
[ tsuru is, at least, good at smoothing things over. ]
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[ His rudeness and tactlessness. ]
And for all his harsh words, I know he'd like to see you as much as you'd like to see him.
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[ there's a chance he might just make him angrier, but.
you never know. ]
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[ She smiles. ]
I don't see you as the type to get easily offended by him.
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[ ... ]
Admittedly, he seems to be more difficult than he normally is at the moment.
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[ Her smile is faint. ]
... That trial did no one any favors.
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[ although tsuru already noticed that kara was being more argumentative than usual even before that. it might be that it seems like there are more people he doesn't get along with here than there was at the village.
but it's hard to know for sure when all you're doing is watching. ]
Somehow, it's more cruel that you're allowed to fight back.
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[ Whether it's someone on Thursday night or whether it's someone by the bonfire on Sunday. ]
People have to choose who they consider more important.
[ And that writes a certain narrative. ]
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But if there is a chance they can fight back? It changes things. You may suddenly resent whoever walks away, because you know they might not have. [ ... ] It really did choose the rules carefully.
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The rules were crafted to create as much pain as possible. Objectively, I can recognize the effectiveness.
[ She can push away her feelings enough for that. ]
And it's not like the wrongly accused don't deserve a chance.
[ It just doesn't make anything easier for anyone. ]
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[ he sighs. ]
The people doing the execution aren't volunteers. They may not have even voted for the person up there. There really isn't anything just about just switching from one innocent life to another.
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[ Anything can be turned into a weapon, but those lower numbers on the die can't even be called a joke. ]
It's not even laughable.
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[ they were kind of held against their will, so it's not like they could fight back. ]
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[ She can't really bring herself to smile even in an obviously fake as a coping mechanism way. ]
It makes me sick to wish for something like that again.
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[ it's what he was literally forged for. ]
But... there really is no point in forcing us all to do these games.
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The point is to try to break us.
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Do you think it's succeeding?
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[ There is no mirth in her smile. ]
It made the cracks in everyone more visible.
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... it did make a few things more clear, yes.
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