lili

[preowned]

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week 6, uhhh post-task, time is fake.

[coastal]

[once they return the bird to wherever it's supposed to be returned to, and they're in an area without anyone else - ]

... Does he know?

What you did?

[preowned]

He does not.

[ kara's reaction when tsuru died probably would have been even more extreme than it already was if he knew, honestly. ]

[coastal]

... and you're not going to tell him.

[admittedly after seeing kara fucking sulk in a volcano after she died, she can imagine why the news would probably be pretty bad but]

Why?

[she wants to hear it from him]

[preowned]

It would have hurt him more than helped. It's been nice, watching his progress...

[ seeing kara interact with others and open up bit by bit to people other than the dategumi. ]

All he would do is blame himself.

[coastal]

[it's not like lili doesn't understand - it'd be a very distracting thing to think about how you might be the cause of a friend's demise and then they lose their life right in front of your eyes. if it had been her and yona... would she have been able to pull herself out of such a deep depression?]

... but that means that you had to hold onto the knowledge all by yourself.

[preowned]

I've been managing.

[ ... ]

I'm not sure how that situation will play out, because I was brought here right after that happened. They may have to break me, or they might figure something else out... either way, I'm grateful for the extra time I got to have.

[coastal]

[ah.

her brow furrows at that, her lips pressing into a thing line as she tries to find an answer for him. this is what she meant when she said she's really not good with people, when she can't figure out the words to give them that might give them some kind of comfort.

'managing'...]

They're going to figure out something else. I -

I'm sure they'll find a way to save you.

[preowned]

[ it really can go either way, he thinks. because if anyone can figure something out, it's his comrades. but at the same time, he knows they'll strike the finishing blow if there isn't any other choice.

that's the life of a weapon, after all. ]

... ahaha, of course they will!

[coastal]

[ . . . . she sighs.]

At least if Ookurikara disagreed with me or thought that I was saying something impossible, he'd at least be obvious about it.

[she noticed the pause?]

... I guess it's a little hypocritical of me to try to say something so certainly when...

[well. she got corrupted. and she's mad at miki for trying to save her. she shakes her head]

Still - I don't think you realize how much you can mean to someone.

[she'll dodge hypocrisy by getting mORE HYPOCRITICAL]

[preowned]

[ listen, tsurumaru has been scarred by minato completely forgetting who he is and only remembering him because of his chicken.

but that gets a small laugh out of him, and he shakes his head. ]

I just know there is the possibility they'll have to take me out. I don't why to shy away from it, even if I'd prefer if they figure something else out. But I willingly put myself in this position so it's not like I can be picky.

[coastal]

[LILI REMEMBERED HIM AND LILI'S OPINION MATTERS MORE THAN MINATO'S]

You're still allowed to be picky! Of course you'd want to live—

I'm not making dinner after all if you keep being so relaxed about it....!!

[preowned]

[ ksfjskjsg ]

Ha?! That's a bad surprise...

[ ... ]

I'm not sure what I'm supposed to say. Everything breaks eventually.

[coastal]

... but it's not like any of you want to. I don't care how long you've lived - you haven't even had this body for that long, right? So there's still a lot more that even you would want to find.

[she's had this conversation with someone before maybe. she frowns.]

You made a decision because you wanted to help someone - even if you chose it... You can still be selfish.

You can still want to live, and you shouldn't call it 'being picky'.

[preowned]

... I'm glad that he had you.

[ lili really is a good match for ookurikara. not even romantically, but just... in general. someone like her would never let him keep to himself.

is he stalling before he addresses the rest of it? maybe. he glances down at his hand, turning it slightly. ]

You have an odd way of words that's actually moving.

[coastal]

[ . . . . ah. she looks a little less certain at that, her expression turning fragile for an entire fraction of a second.]

... if I can get you to listen to me then... maybe it's fine.

[she doesn't try to be moving - she just says what's on her mind. it doesn't always work. but if she can just convince him...]

... you have to go back, and you have to survive so you can stay with him, and not leave him alone.

I already...

[broke that promise]

[preowned]

[ he thinks back to what her secret was. he understands, and he remembers admitting to lune that he had been scared when he was killed.

it's strange to think that he had only really known her for a week. there were the messages from the oracle bell, but the mostly just talked about the task information in short bursts. it makes him sad again, knowing that he could have had more time to spend with these people. ]

I'll take care of Kara-bou as best as I can.

But for now, keep sending him things so he won't ever forget that you're still around.

[coastal]

... he said that he'd remember.

[the things that they've done together, and she sounds a little wistful. like she hopes that it's true. but she knows that they live a lot longer than she does, and she can't expect to make an impact on people like that, no matter how much they might like her in the moment.

but she sighs and tries to regain her composure before her emotions get any more caught in her throat than they already are.]

But the idiot's already forgetting to feed the chickens - just because I took care of it every time that he got moody doesn't mean that he can slack off when I'm gone...

[preowned]

Bob-chan...

[ HIS CHILD

TSURU MISSES HIS CHICKEN SO MUCH

HE CAN'T EVEN MAKE A THOUGHTFUL COMMENT ON KARA HE'S TOO SAD ABOUT BOB-CHAN ]

[coastal]

[ . . . . right, it's tsuru's chicken. lili just glances over to him and shakes her head]

... she's growing well. She has to do well, because I told Ookurikara to take her and Kazakiri to your citadel with you when all of this is over.

We also got them new hats along with their old ones.

1/2

[preowned]

Bob-chan's a girl?

[ what. ]

[preowned]

... hm, but that will be nice. I hope to see them soon.

[ the one thing tsuru does not mention to lili is the fact that he isn't even sure that he and kara come from the same place, and he's leaning more towards that they aren't.

he decides to keep that secret to himself though. ]

[coastal]

[tsuru actually has so many secrets and yet you couldn't pick one]

All chickens are girls - I think the roosters are boys.

But we can't see them too soon! If he ends up here, you have to help me scold him!

[lili please]

[preowned]

Eh? Why would he end up here?

[ he's not allowed to die? ]

[coastal]

Exactly!

[SHE HUFFS]

... I know that there's only supposed to be one person left and... maybe there's a few people I wouldn't mind it being.

But... I want it to be him.

[preowned]

Oh, me too. I hope it's him.

[ ... ]

I would have been fine if it were you though.